Monday, August 22, 2005
hello everyone.
im jacq. and im a huge huge mess.
and thank
you for completely ruining the one day that i was looking forward to all weekend. and now tomorrow, instead of being on our great date with our dearest nessa bay at holland v, i will be slogging away after school in your remedial class which im sure will be
incredibly helpful. so thanks a whole lot, really. i am eternally indebted to you and i'm sure i will be singing your praises for years to come.
childish, i know. petty, i know. unreasonable, i know. but i never claimed to not be any of those things.
i'm not stupid. i'm not stupid. i'm not stupid. (do i hear a little voice at the back of my head saying otherwise ?)
why can't i be more like
him. but i guess after all these years i finally understand that i can't and will never be able to be. life is like that sometimes. some people are born smart. while some people well.. just aren't.
hah...i really am a mess.
i tear my heart open, i sew myself shut.my weakness is that i care too much.and our scars remind us that the past is real.i tear my heart open just to feel.
jacq was here at 9:35 PM***
