Tuesday, May 24, 2005
oh wonderful. i've just discovered even more proof that what i suspected might be true.
hahaha. how...
traumatic.
and i mean it. no other word even comes close.
as if everything that's happened and everything i've been through isn't already enough.
luckily i've had so many shocks this term i've managed to build up some sort of resistance.
otherwise i think this one might have been just enough to get me sent straight into woodbridge.
i can't believe this is really happening.
please don't let me be right.
this just goes to show you can't trust people. can't trust anyone.
the stench of betrayal is overwhelming.
please please please. i'd give anything to be wrong.
please let me be wrong. please.
i do happen to still want my sanity.
im still in need of it. please don't take it away.
cos if this is for real, if this isn't just a nightmare,
i think i'll really lose control.
i've tried so hard to laugh it off,
but i can't pretend anymore that this isn't affecting me.
haha...everything's come crashing down again.
just when i thought things weren't so bad.
im really about to lose it.
please let me be wrong.
i'd give anything.
jacq was here at 9:22 PM***
